Day 2

Bell said I should keep on telling him about my feeling, and call him directly. It's not good to have too much pride and possibly he is expecting for my call.
But I don't know, how do I know about that? We called it an end. And every night I just feel like shit.

It's not easy for me to pass through two days without contacting with him, I need to wash him off my brain if that's what we want.

Anyway, the best movie I saw in 2009 so far -- 花吃了那女孩, English name 'Candy Rain'


The story is about four lesbian couples and their four different status of relationships:
"Happily together"
"Together but not happy"
"Happy but not together"
"Not together, not happy"
Or
"All those above?"

The movie feels like a glass of lemonade in the summer, the taste is sweet and sour
but you will memorize it probably forever.
Not just the movie, the soundtrack is quite good also.
Oh, btw, someone stole the chocolate I left on my desk in the office :(

Ha

All I want to do is finish that three muffins, and waiting for the next time to get totally wasted.
That's where I belong.

What i'm thinking

I really appreciate all the happiness and tenderness he brought last few weeks. it's been a long time that my heart beating so fast for someone.

But It is not a good sign, we all know the end of the chapter, in the end my heart break into pieces if i don't control myself; and i will lock myself at home, calling friend and crying over the phone till im totally dehydrated; life still goes on, and i will be back to the track anyway.

I'm totally lost now.